It Is What It Is

God, grant me the serenity to ACCEPT the things I cannot change,The courage to change the things I can,And the wisdom to know the difference.  

acceptanceThings I decided to simply accept:

  • I am black in America
  • I am a female
  • I am 38 years old
  • I live in Los Angeles right now
  • I have student loan debt and poor money management skills
  • I have been trying to lose the same 15-20 pounds for the last two years
  • I have not written anything I feel is significant enough to warrant a full time writing job
  • I have never been married
  • I have no children
  • I don't have a job title
  • I don't dance very well
  • I never made a "30 under 30 list
  • I haven't written a fully developed feature
  • I work for others (I'm not the boss at work)
  • I don't know how to swim
  • I am not athletic and working out is a struggle for me more often than not
  • My hair hasn't grown as much as I thought it would by now
  • I have a not so stable relationship with food
  • My car is crappy but I can't afford a new one right now
  • I also want to move but the cost of living in L.A. makes that unaffordable at the time as well
  • I can't do 30 consecutive days of Bikram
  • I watch a lot of Lifetime and thus I don't trust enough...
  • I don't have enough clothes
  • Life gets hard for me a lot
  • My faith is shaky sometimes
  • I get scared
  • I've made a lot of mistakes

And the biggest thing I decided to accept: I sometimes don't know what I'm doing.

 

I now accept these things and graciously allow the transformative miracles to come forth.